Category: Happy life

Mr Fuller, this is as good as you are gonna get….

Last week, after my latest CT Scan,  I asked the doctor about a slightly itchy rash on my elbow and also on the back of my neck.  His  answer was pretty direct as he said, it’s not gonna get any better Harry. This Keytruda trial is working now, and as long it does great. When, or if, you stop responding to the Keytruda, your only other option is likely chemotherapy.  (ie.  stop the Keytruda, kiss your ass goodbye!)  In other words, the Keytruda trial therapy will continue every 21 days for the remainder of your life, period.

Besides the life sentence to inject this stuff forever, it was a pretty good scan result this time. Tumors in my lungs are continuing to shrink in both lungs and my kidneys.

So as I’ve always said, it’s all good until it isn’t.  Gotta keep a positive attitude here and thank God, and everyone praying for me.  So my reality is that I’m now closing in still on being alive nearly two years after the six month prediction of my demise.  (death)

Concerning the itchy rash on my arm and neck, I’ll take the rash.   The only downside is, according to Mick Jagger,  It’s gonna take an ocean of calamine lotion, but I’ll take that!

Morale of this story:  It is all good, until it isn’t.  Enjoy your day, keep your blind faith and live your life as if it might end tomorrow.

All in all a pretty good prognosis with continued therapy every three weeks or so. Headed back to Las Vegas in a week or so, then a short trip to Washington DC.

Then in an effort to my prove my theory that it’s all good until it isn’t,  While it’s still good I’m soon off to the races, so to speak.

I picked up a couple of round-trip tickets to London🇬🇧and figure I can randomly jump around Europe for a few weeks.  Those who know me also know I am somewhat OCD when it comes to creating an agenda of when, where and how I might enjoy everyday to a maximum return of fun.  (ROF)

Also think I’m going live a little like Tom Petty’s song, Time to move on, time to get going, what lays ahead I have no way of knowing.

Not really sure of what lays ahead here so I booked a ticket from London to Athens🇬🇷,  then to Rome🇮🇹 and then a nice stay on the Greek Island of Santorini.   After a little serious chillin like a villan,  a few nights in Amsterdam🇳🇱 then back to my sweet home Chicago and on to Las Vegas.  If anybody has a tip for excellent cuisine along the way please drop me a note!

I’m packing light, a backpack, a Nikon and an American Express card.  I am fairly certain my wife will enjoy shopping at the massive Harrods with its 330 plus departments and over one million feet of shopping fun,  only a short jaunt from our hotel.  Our other main stop(s) will be at a few of the over 330 Fuller Brewery Pubs around southern England.  I’m feeling a jacket, t-shirt who knows.

Watch for this blog to turn into a travel blog for a while, frankly I’m a little tired of thinking about cancer, the related cancer treatment industrial complex and my next CT scan.  Ready for a relaxed few weeks of exploring, and eating!

On a sad note more than a few good friends have recently lost loved ones to this thing classified as cancer.  Every time I hear of someone passing on it’s hard to have a little anxiety concerning my own destiny .  I attempt to control this anxiety with faith and an expectation of improving health. 

No matter how much anxiety I experience in this life,  a  faith in God and the holy spirit will ease your pain.  Faith does work for me and that might be the best thing that’s come out of my stage 4 bladder cancer.  

So stay tuned and stick around for some fun, for a change!  Time for a little european vacation.  I’m sure it will also result in some great pictures of the sites and of course food.  Happy Trails my friends, until we meet again.

Take a minute

Do what needs to be done….

Don’t tell no stories, don’t tell no lies…..

Just listening to a brand new Neil Young release “The Visitor”,  one of the best truth teller song writers, at least, of my times.  Kind of funny how our age sometimes re-focuses on the perception of truth and reality.  One of the great tunes on this release is “Change of Heart”

I have had the fortune of seeing Mr. Young and his band Promise of the Real several times in the last few years.  Might I suggest that these shows are affirmations of exactly what is possible in our lives.  Songs that make me think are the ones I remember.

Lies aren’t really nothing but a road to nowhere, just a story with your name engraved on it.

As I have watched the 24 hour news cycles over the past few months I have overdosed on the reality concerning not only some of our elected officials, but the multitude of sexual predatory issues being put on display daily.  As we watch a celebrities being outed for sexual inappropriateness in the workplace and the outrage of  public reaction, I can only say really?  Did you just figure this out?  First time you ever heard of the casting couch?

While I am also a little shocked, I can’t say I’m that surprised.  With a real examination of our own selves, how many people can say they are not somewhat also complacent in this debacle of sexual  or other abuse of others?  To many different degrees, hopefully the lesser, these events will act as a wakeup call for many people in positions of power.  That power might be in media or other workplaces from the top all the way to the fast food industry and everything in-between.

If you can accept that this has been occurring since Adam and Eve, then you can also realize this.  Many people who can,  and do,  accomplish good, if not great things, also have a past.  Do some of these past things include indiscretions driven by human desires and wants?  These desires are sadly part of the food chain of life.  Predators and victims, like lions and sheep.  Have at least some of these predators become productive members of society?  Do you hate the lion because they ate the animal a little further down the food chain?

We all have choices to make.  I believe this “light of day” can simply illuminate the issue and help alleviate the resulting problems.  To act so shocked that this has and is happening might then show that maybe you are the naive one in this equation.  We all have choices to make, the give and take of life, the yin and yang, right and wrong, the analogies go on and on.

Do these same truths carry on to affect our environment, health care, political climate and just about every life choice?

When I was younger I made a decision to focus on accumulating wealth and power thru owning and operating a business.  That decision has left myself and my wife with enough funds to live our life at will, going where we want and when we want.

Amassing  possessions and all that is alright, but as the end of my days approach a Change of Heart starts to make more sense.  All beit a needed change of heart and attitude ?  I truly wish I had refocused on things that actually matter a little earlier in my life.   That said, I do not regret accumulating wealth as to free myself, my wife or my children from worrying about my financial destiny.  The alternative is to wish and whine about how society owes us everything?

Listening to endless bitching about our elected officials, corporate America, those people who actually accumulate and build their own wealth I am only certain of one true thing.  

Might it be more productive, and positive, for you to focus on what you can do to improve our society.  Can you have a more positive effect on our children and on our society to approach things more positively?  Endless bitching about nearly everything makes you weak and it sadly often makes you the victim.

Now, at age 65, I also feel a Change of Heart concerning not only the workplace, family life and values, our environment and much empathy for the complete diversity of man.  Regardless of our own life quests, my heart tells me that charity begins with our thoughts and our actions.

As Mr. Young said, There is something happening here, what it is ain’t exactly clear.  He also said,

Time don’t mean nothing, it’s the ways you choose.  To go on living inside your house, instead of staying and dying inside, sometimes you move, sometimes you rise Neil Young.